I just came across these prayers by Ted Loder in his book, “Gorillas of Grace” and it perfectly describes my heart as I look to a new season of ministry in a new church family. ?
I Tremble on the Edge of a Maybe
O God of beginnings, as your Spirit moved over the face of the deep on the first day of creation, move with me now in my time of beginnings,
when the air is rain-washed, the bloom is on the bush, and the worlds seems fresh and full of possibilities, and I feel ready and full.
I tremble on the edge of a maybe, a first time, a new thing, a tentative start, and the wonder of it lays its finger on my lips.
In silence, Lord, I share now my eagerness and my uneasiness about this something different I would be or do;
and I listen for your leading to help me separate the light from the darkness in the change I seek to shape and which is shaping me.
Bring More of What I Dream
O God, who out of nothing brought everything that is, out of what I am bring more of what I dream but haven’t dared; direct my power and passion
to creating life where there is death, to putting flesh of action on bare-boned intentions, to lighting fires against the midnight of indifference, to throwing bridges of care
across canyons of loneliness; so I can look on creation, together with you, and, behold, call it very good; through Jesus Christ my Lord.